This is my "Top Ten Things that are Bugging Me" list:
1. I get kind of resentful that I missed (what I think is) so much of my munchkin's first year because I was worried about everything going on in my marriage.
2. I get really resentful that I'm letting myself miss so much now because I let myself get caught up in being upset about how much I missed before.
3. I don't want to work anymore. But I think it's only because I feel like I'm missing out on the rest of my life.
4. I'm terrible at asking for help, even when I really need it. It tends to come out as either bossy or whiny, neither of which is good.
5. I can't seem to get enough sleep.
6. Finances. And all the worries that go with it.
7. I miss those old, good feelings. It's not that the new feelings are bad. They're just new. And different.
8. My biological clock started ticking and it is the strangest feeling I've ever had. I really thought I didn't want another child. Now, I'm not so sure. But aside from money, I worry about my mommy-abilitites. I mean, what if I don't do it better the second time around?
9. I feel like I want to go back to school, but I don't even know what for. I think I just want a career change.
10. I feel like I'm running out of time. Not in a silly way. Kind of like a doomsday way. I don't know why, but it's not sitting well. Maybe because my 30th birthday is fast approaching? Some other reason?
Monday, August 27, 2007
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3 comments:
I get the impression you feel like everything's going so fast and you have to keep up - try slowing down. Take a day to yourself. Heck, take a week! Atleast take a breath.
As soon as I saw the title of this post, I started composing my own list of things that are bugging me. But then I read the whole post and my top ten seem dumb, especially things like summer's over and school has started.
Go take a break and sit on mom and dad's swing while looking at dad's ginormous garden. Somehow everything seems a little better when staring at a two foot cucumber.
hahaha, everything DOES seem a little bit better when staring at a two foot cucumber. Do you think it's because Dad uses the Force to make them grow?
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