Another Year...

In 2007, I gained a first year college experience (including a major).

I lost contact with some (good) friends.

I stopped stressing about the little things - -For the most part anyway.

I started to plan ahead in life.

I was hugely satisfied by acing my first semester ;-)

And frustrated by a certain individual who sometimes confused the hell out of me.

I am so embarrassed that I still find my thoughts wandering back to a year ago and then some....

Once again, I plotted evil against others.

Once again, I did not say exactly what I meant.

The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is nothing, really. But I will be getting contacts in a week!

The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is my outlook on the world and the people in it (at least those I know, anyway.)

I loved spending time with cute little nieces and nephews and my friends.

Why did I spend even two minutes thinking that he could have missed me?

I should have spent more time outside.

I regret buying a CD that made me remember all the wrong things.

I will never regret buying my little blue dress even though with that money I could have bought more appropriate clothes... Like the ones I need for work.

I worked way too much.

I didn't sleep enough.

My friends drove me crazy.

Was my summer crazier than ever last year? Or was it me?

The most relaxing place I went was Barnes and Noble on this one specific day....

I feel so dreamy when I write that down.

Why did I go to his house?

The best thing I did for someone else was tell them I was happy for them.

The best thing I did for myself was forgive and (try to) forget.

The best thing someone did for me was say that some things are worth fighting for and that they believed I would pick what I really wanted... Even though I wasn't so sure of myself.

The one thing I'd like to do again, but do it better, is live life.

What Women Want

I haven't been to a movie in a long time, but there are MANY times when I'll see a trailer on TV and think, "Oh, I'd like to see that." This is true for the movie, P.S. I Love You. I've seen a bunch of trailers, and even though the reviews haven't been great, I think it looks cute.

But there's one trailer that bugs me a little. There's a clip where a man is asking Hilary Swank what women want, and she responds with something along the lines of, "We have no idea."

I don't think that's true. I think most women know exactly what they want. I mean, I know what I want for the most part, so maybe I'm just jumping to a conclusion in assuming that other women know, too. I want people to want me to be myself. I want people to see past my rough-around-the-edges exterior and get to know the softie that's hiding inside. I have a day-old-doughnut personality...the kind that's crusty on the outside, but still good everywhere else. I want to go through life at my own pace, whether it's breakneck speed or turtle-slow. I want to reach my own finish line in my own time. And I want to do it wearing really cute shoes.

I want to be the best I can be at everything and reserve the right to be in a bad mood every now and then and refuse to be a sex kitten because, well, hell, I just don't feel like it. I want to laugh more at life and problems but still be taken seriously.

I want to be surrounded by people who make meaningful promises and actually keep them. Marriage vows and promising to put away laundry are both examples of meaningful promises.

And every now and then, I want to have a day all to myself where I don't have to do anything. But that may take a coma, so I'm not sure about that...

Brooke/Lucas - Don't Break My Heart Slow

I don't watch this show, but I really like the song. Under this wreck of femininity, there beats the heart of a true romantic. I really don't miss the days of young, desperate love...except for when I do, you know?

Sarcastic Wish List #4

    I'm going to go back to the original theme of "sarcasm" with my list, not simply things we're never going to get/don't exist. So without further ado:

1) A bag of manners. So that I can distribute them to the alarming number of uncivilized people in my life. If there are any left over after that daunting task, I may even give some to the rest of the world.

2) In the vein of Sister #1, a countertop dishwasher. Because apparently it's just as freaking hard to open up the dishwasher as it is to walk across the kitchen to the garbage can.

3) Logic pills. I will leave a trail of them everywhere I go. And before you can say more than two words to me, you will be obligated to swallow one. That way I never have to furrow my eyebrows like this again ">:["

4) A rubber coat. That way all the drama will bounce right off of me and trap the instigators in a sticky mess! (Sounds like something from an old "Batman and Robin" movie).

and 5) Yes, I have five: a sign that says "I already emailed it to you." Because trust me. I have. And I'm tired of telling our consultant that.

The End.

Watching the snow.

That's what I did when I came home this evening...

Have you ever really just sat and watched the snow?
I don't think that I have ever done it until tonight, actually watching and listening to the nothingness of it all.
Could things really be that calm?

Sarcastic Wish List #3

It would be a magical Christmas indeed.....

1. A magic wand. I like the idea, Sister #2, but instead of your philosophy on it, I find myself leaning more toward the toad route. You annoy me, I turn you into a toad (or whatever animal/amphibian I feel that like day). Let it be a warning to you.

2. A castle. Like Eureka's Castle! (Haha, it was an awesome TV show... back when I was in kindergarten, that is). And sticking with #1, every sorceress needs a castle and a dragon to hang out with!

3. A flying umbrella and a (fashionable) bag that never empties. It's a little Marry Poppins-ish, but I love the idea! Just think about it, you can avoid traffic by air travel, and even if it rains, you're covered! As for the bag, I think it would be just awesome to carry around any and everything that you can think of. Need to lay down? Here, let me pull out my lawn chair for you!

4. A puppy. ....I swear, Mom and Dad won't mind!

Sarcastic Wish List #2

In the spirit of fun, I wish for...

1. A giant mirror. I like the reason Sister #1 gave, but I have a better reason. I will carry it around so that when people are stupid and getting on my nerves, I can get a self-esteem boost by gazing into it and saying, "Mirror, Mirror in my hand, who's the fairest Sister in the land?" Of course, it will respond with, "Well, Sister #1 is the fairest with her pale complexion. But you, Sister #2 are the darkest and curviest. You have got it going on!"

2. A pocket sized magic wand that will extend to full size with a flick of my wrist. When people complain to me about their problems, I will wave it over them. When they say, "Hey, it didn't get rid of my problems," I will clock them over the head with it (rendering them unconscious) and say, "Nope, but it got rid of mine."

3. To hear a priest fart. It's totally irreverant, I know, but my curiosity is getting the better of me. I mean, what would he say in the middle of noon mass if he just let it rip? "Gee, sorry about that. You know, four masses means a lot of wafers and wine. Does bad things to the intestines, you know?"

Good stuff, I tell ya. Now, #3 and #4, where are your lists?